The Realization.

But first, the workout.

Shoulder, Bis and Tris. I will do chest with my bench on Fridays. or whenever I can fit it in.

1a) Over head Press BB
45 x 10
55 x 5
60 x 3 x 3
45 x 10

1b) EZ Bar Preacher Curls
20 x 8
30 x 8
35 x 3 x 3
20 x 10

1c) Tricep Pushups
5 x 10

2a) Seated DB Military Press
20's x 5 x 8

2b) DB Hammer curls
20's x 5 x 8

2c) Cable Press Downs
30 x 5 x 10

3a) EZ Bar upright rows
35 x 4 x 10

3b) EZ bar curls
35 x 4 x 8

4a) High Pully curls
25 x 4 x 10

4b) DB lying Tri Extensions
5's x 4 x 8

4c) Regular pushups
4 x 10

I've been doing some thinkin. Scary I know.  I'm not sure what I will be doing for my bench in the meet. I obviously will not be able to get 100. It's crushed me too many times lately. And the memory of how heavy it was, is stickin in my head. So I won't even attempt it. I was also told my squats are not good because my legs are not strong. A little late to change that now. So I will try and block that comment from my head so I don't bomb on my squats. I guess I will go to the meet to pull 300. That will be my only goal.

 I will also have to start thinking about my attempts. In the past I've relied on someone else  to call them for me. someone who always knew exactly what I was capable of. But that person hasn't seen a single lift I"ve done in 6 months. To the day actually. (except for last weeks squats). so it will be up to me.

And I think this will be my last meet. I've been told I need a training partner if I want to be good. I always thought, I didn't need one as long as I had someone to go to for support and advice when I did my workouts. But I no longer have that either. So I will just concentrate on being an awesome massage therapist. And lift weights, just to lift weights. I guess.

c.